If love is music, what kind of genre you want it to be? Is it ballad, where you can be romantic almost all the times, or is it rock, where you can break all the normal rules and still are lovers at the end of the day or is it nasheed where it can bring you more close to the almighty.
I have known love since I was nine years old, I still remember very clearly, that was the first time ever, that I am having a crush on someone. She was my friend. We were in the same class and she sat right in front of me. I remember for the first time I can feel my heart beating so fast, and everyday I was so excited to go to school so that I can meet her. However that did not last long, I moved out of town the next year, after a year I came back, she was there, but the feeling that I used to have was not there anymore, we would walk pass each other and pretend nothing ever happen between us in the past. We had gone through the remaining years of primary school without talking to each other, ever.
That was then. I turned fifteen, and this one girl made me feel something that I have never felt before. I had known her before, she used to date my friend, but they broke up. I have never kept any feeling towards her before, but a simple event can change everything in the future. It was July, the school is having a big event, so there is no class, at all, we would wondering across the corridor going to the other class, meeting friends, talk and make noise. So, here I am, in her class, I cannot remember what really happen but she came to me, and she asked for my wallet. I have this small wallet where I hung on my neck, just like how a college student wore their matrix card. Without thinking twice, I gave her, and I do not know why, I have never been too friendly to a girl before. On the weekend, the school is having the event, and she asked me to let her keep the wallet for the whole weekend, and of course, I said yes. Since then, we would always use the wallet as an excuse to meet or talk, after few months of knowing each other, on September, we were finally together. We were in love for one and a half year and we decided to end everything. We tried to fix everything but we were failed, we were just not in the same page anymore. Today, six years after we broke up, we are still friend.
Then, I started to believe that everything was only beautiful at first. We used to hold each other’s hand when we felt insecure, I gave her the world, but we were too young.
Shortly after that I promised myself not to fall to anyone anymore, but there was this girl, three years old younger than me, I was nineteen and she was sixteen. There is no intention at first, I always thought of her as someone that I can text when I got bored, that is all. However lives goes on, and she really have this feelings for me, as according to her I am the only place she can go when everything gets hard. So I give it a try, and I am happy, plenty of memories to talk about, I surprised her on her first birthday with me with a gift, which I told her I did not buy. We talked a lot, we laughed a lot, she sulked a lot and yes, we fought almost all the times and we cried when we knew how much we loved each other. I called her my life, and she told me I am her heaven, but still, that was not enough to keep us long. After two and a half years we choose our own path. Life came between us, and we have not talk since, ever.
It was devastated, knowing that it is all over. Someone that I used to called my life is now suddenly having a new heaven, I was lost, I’m drowning, but there is one person who is there, a friend, a friend who always been there for me since I don't even remember, and now she is here more than ever. We shared about our days, we talked about our past and experience, we were close, until one night I knew, I have feelings for her. I wrote her something to let her know and from that day on we were in some kind of situation without a declaration. With no agreement, we agreed to be the best for each other, but again, life came between us, we fought and we did not talk for four months. Recently, we talked, we made everything clear, I told her I love her, and she understand and she appreciate it, but it is too late, she cannot give me what I want. But that is okay, I tried, and it is worth it. I am relief, we are still okay, still being friends for each other, that is how we started, and that is how we always be.
So, this is three love songs of mine. However, I cannot figure out what kind of genre it was. Is it hip hop? Where everything is related to sexuality, or is it ballad? Where everything can be so romantic and poetic, or is it just a song from any genre, that talks and tells about love, so that it will last for years, just like how a great love songs always last, so, which one is your song?
